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Hmm. [Friday August 4th, 2006 at 10:05am] Comment?

Dreams [Thursday July 20th, 2006 at 12:26pm] [ mood | complacent ] I had a weird dream last night. I was going to Japan and, for some inane reason, my mother and sister were coming with me. So was Nicole. But the plane landed and they only had a couple of hours until they departed. I was staying though. Nicole left pretty much straight away. Then Mum, Melonie and I drove around while we looked for somewhere to drop me off. Japan looked almost identical to Australia. We drove down industrial areas, near parks and around towns. Then we went back to the airport, they left and I was there by myself. I wonder what it means... Comment?

*deep breath* [Thursday July 20th, 2006 at 12:24pm] [ mood | cold ] Alright, so I've calmed down. My stomach doesn't hurt anymore. I'm less stressed. My mood has swung to a more positive outlook. I'm ok. Comment?

Mmmm. [Monday July 17th, 2006 at 8:25pm] [ mood | angry ] Enough of this emo bullshit. Right now I'm mad, indignant, aggravated and annoyed. Tell me, why is it that I'm always the one who feels bad while all the other assholes in the world break the backs of millions and don't give it a second thought? Why do I have to be the one with a conscience? Fuck my conscience. I will not apologize to you! The whole reason that I avoided you was because you always get so goddamn pissy. Not everyone lives the same life as you and it's about time you realize it. There are things that make everyday things harder for me. Not that you'd care. How about you ask me about my problems for once. ... I'm majorly pissed. Read? (1) Comment?

OMG! [Sunday July 2nd, 2006 at 8:31am] [ mood | giddy ] Melbourne's first Animania was awesome! Suffice to say that my very first anime convention went off without a hitch. I was riding on a high the whole time. It was so exciting that hours passed like crazed minutes. I kept pointing at everything and proclaiming "CUTE!" or "OMG!". Liz even walked away from me a couple of times in exasperation, such was the depth of my exhilaration. The cosplayers were breath-taking. Some had put so much effort in that it was literally startling. Some, like me, were wearing costumes they'd bought. They all looked stunning! I couldn't believe how many people came up to me to asking for photograph's. It was all very overwhelming. The vendors made me question my sanity. So many things I wanted to buy. So little money to do it with. It made me feel like crying and laughing at the same time. At manifest I will have to make sure that I have loads of $. In the meantime I have my adorable Kyo plushie. I entered the karaoke competition, of course, and sung 'Eternal Snow' from Full Moon Wo Sagishite. I knew, maybe, the first sentence. And yet when I was finished the guy running the competition said 'that was awesome'. I tell you what, all these compliments were really starting to go to my head. *laughs* Anyway, there was some other really exuberant performances and girls who sang really well in Japanese. Slightly shocked, I ended up winning. Personally I think the really cute asian chicky at the end deserved to. But I was stoked nonetheless. With that the anime convention, for me at least, came to an end. To say it met my high expectations would be a gross understatement of the facts. I absolutely loved it! I will defiantly be doing that again. Kisses, Ariel Read? (2) Comment?

Holiday's are kinda... dull. [Friday June 23rd, 2006 at 7:10pm] [ mood | bored ] Gee, it's been a bit boring being on school holiday's. Monotony. Monotony. More monotony. I really need to get a full-time job... Comment?

New layout! [Tuesday June 20th, 2006 at 6:21pm] [ mood | excited ] Look at my new layout! Isn't it prettiful! Special thanks to killstealer for making it and panic_layouts for hosting it. God knows I don't have a time or patience to make one for myself. Now, let's all take some time to stand back and reflect in the web-kawaiiness. Comment?

*punches air* Yes! [Sunday June 18th, 2006 at 8:01pm] [ mood | hyper ] Damn. So ecstatic right now. On top of the moon, in fact. I've got an interview to be a Miss Shop Model. Only 4 hours a week but it pays, get this, $85 an hour... And all I have to do is stand there and look nice. MWHAHAHA! Life rocks, bitches! Read? (2) Comment?

If Liz can do endless bloody surveys then so can I, Goddamit! [Sunday June 18th, 2006 at 6:43pm] [ mood | cold ] Not that anyone will care... But that's not going to stop me. *maniacal laugh* LO V E - A N D - L U S T: 1. Do you like anyone?: Yes... If you count fictional people... But you don't do you? ... Well SCREW YOU THEN! 2. Do they know it?: I seriously doubt it... A_A; I N - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U: 22. Do you think you are unique?: Everybody is unique. I've never met anyone exactly the same as anyone us and I hope to God I never do. H A V E - Y O U - E V E R: 23. Said "I Love you": All the time. 24. Given money to a homeless person?: Ahah. 25. Gone to a party?: Duh. 26. Waited all night for a phone call?: Regret every moment of it... But yes. 27. Snuck out?: Never needed to. 28. Sat and looked at the stars?: Every. Single. Day. M A N N E R S: 29. Do you swear/curse?: Mmmmm. 30. Do you ever spit?: Ewww, no! 31. You cook your own food?: Nearly every night. But it's more like cook for the whole family than cook for myself. 32. You do your own chores?: Sorta. 33. You like beef jerky?: Never had it. I'm from Australia not that other starts with A place... Can't quite remember what it's called. 34. You like pepsi or coke?: Coke. More sugar means thumbs up in my books. SUGAR! 35. You're happy with your hair?: Needs a packet of dye. 36. You own a dog?: Nope. 38. Do you like to swim?: Love to. 39. When you get bored do you call friends? Nah. I hate talking on the phone. D O - Y O U - P R E F E R ' S: 41. Flowers or angels?: Angels. 42. Gray or black?: Grey. I have a pair of grey thigh high socks... They're hot! 43. Color or black and white photos?: Black and white are more nestalgic and smexy. 45. Sunrise or sunset?: Sunset. 46. M&Ms or Skittles?: Skittles. YUMMY! 48. staying up late or waking up early?: Staying up late. I hate mornings. I despise them. 49. Being hot or cold?: Hot. I love sweating. Sweating is hot. 50. Winter or Fall?: What is this thing you call fall? 51. Left or right?: Left. More exotic. Exotic=sexy!!! 52. Have 10 acquaintances or two best friends? 2 Best friends. 53. Sunshine or rain?: Rain. Tis also very sexy. Many things are sexy... Just in case you did not already know that. 54. Vanilla or chocolate ice cream?: Vanilla. H-A-V-E Y-O-U E-V-E-R: 55. Slept in a bed with the opposite sex?: Duh. 56. Hooked up w/ someone in a car?: Yup. 57. Stolen money from a friend?: Never. 59. Had a crush on a teacher?: Nope. 60. Seen someone die?: No and I hope I never do. 61. Slept all day?: When I was little and sick. 62. Missed someone so much it hurt?: Nope. 63. Fell asleep in school?: Napped yes. 64. Been lonely?: Always and never. 65. Cheated in a game? Yup. 66. Been to the ER?: *looks at Liz* Hahahahahahaha! 67. Been scuba diving?: Nope. 68. Had detention?: Many times. 69. Skipped detention?: ^Almost as many times. 70. Sing in the shower? Every time. 71. Hooked up with more than 2 people in 1 weekend? Oh yeah. Good weekends those. 72. Laughed so hard you cried?: Often. 1. Where were you 1 hour ago? Talking to my brother. 2. Who will be your next kiss? Anyone. See my on the street and kiss me... I DARE YOU! 3. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? I don't know how long a foot is but probably. 4. When is the last time you went to the mall? Yesterday. 5. Are you wearing socks? Yup. They're green. Soo hot! 6. When was the last time you went out of town? What? I'm confused. 7. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days? I have free tickets to go. But no I haven't. 8. What was the last thing you had to drink? Tea. 9. What are you wearing right now? Dressing gown and underwear. That's pretty much the norm. 10. Have you been in a car wash? Yeah. Tis fun. 11. Last fast food you ate? A pizza. I love pizza. If it was a man I would marry it... and then kill it and devour it's cheesy goodness. 12. Where were you last week on Sunday? Who knows. Too far back to know or care. 13. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week? Lots. 14. When is the last time you ran? Never. 15. What's the last sporting event you watched? I don't like sport. It hurts my brain. 16. What is your favorite class? JAPANESE! 17. Your dream vacation? NIHON! 18. Last 3 people you talked to? Liz, Andy and Melonie. 19. What's your favorite food? MEXICAN... or JAPANESE! 20. Do you like dogs or cats better? Cats rule, dogs drool! MWHAHAHAHA! 21. Do you miss anyone? I think you've already asked this Mr. Quiz... 22. Last play you saw? Jesus Christ Superstar. 23. What are your plans for today? Watch Sliders... Go to sleep. 24. Who is the last person that commented to you on myspace? Dunno. Too lazy to check. 25. Where are them tight pants? I don't own any. 33. Do you collect anything? Keychains. Harry Potter books. Clothes. Shoes. 34. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over? About a month ago. Breathalizer. I was fine. 35. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw? ... I refuse to answer a question that dumb. 36. Do you see yourself getting married in the next 5 years? Jesus, no! 37. Do you like hot sauce? Not really. 38. Last time you took a shower? This morning. 39. Who do you have a crush on? Too many men and woman to name. 40. What is your mood? Tired. 41. Are you someones best friend? Yeah. 42. Are you rich? I wish. 43. Who do you think will fill this out after you? Melonie. I shall make her. 44. What do you think of yourself? ... In a word... HOT! Comment?

What's left of me? [Wednesday June 7th, 2006 at 8:41am] [ mood | chipper ] ... Sometimes I wonder. I feel like I'm not even living anymore. I'm scared of life. Scared of people. Scared of myself. This is my last chance to redeem whatever has been over from all these years of bad decisions and sad memories. I really want to live... I'm just not sure I know how. Someone, anyone, please just listen. This is my last chance. -Ariel Read? (2) Comment?

*sigh* [Monday June 5th, 2006 at 5:00pm] [ mood | awake ] School is finally over... Thank the Lord! Now is the time to repair my hectic, devastated social life. Nicole will probably be coming over on Wednesday (haven't seen her in ages so I'm looking forward to it), karaoke with Liz and Mel on Friday night and on Saturday me and Liz off to the glitz and glamor on inner city clubs that don't require id. Life: I'm back! Read? (1) Comment?

Camera Phone Madness! [Sunday June 4th, 2006 at 7:46pm] [ mood | satisfied ] What do you get when you give a bored 19-year-old female with a 1.3 mega pixel camera phone? That's what! ^-^ Comment?

WWWetainment! [Sunday June 4th, 2006 at 9:31am] [ mood | giggly ] Awesome videos: take two. Ernesto Hoost K1 - gaki no tsukai "Silent Library 3" Said it once I'll say it again: I love 日本. Everything about the place is insanely spectacular! Likelihood of becoming a Japanophile rating: I think I'm turning Japanese. I think I'm turing Japanese. I really think so!/10 Brokeback to the Future I thought that Back to the Future just couldn't be topped... Looks like I was wrong. Likelihood of being sickened by oldman/boy relationship: 10/10 (I actually thought it was kind of cute) Mother's Day Siblings... arn't they just the greatest. I feel your pain brother... I feel your pain. Likelihood of being able to relate: 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000*/10 Comment?

Funny videos. [Saturday June 3rd, 2006 at 4:17pm] [ mood | grateful ] I am bored. So I turned to the vast database of internet comedy gold (or crap, sometimes I confuse those two) to entertain me. Here's the vast and vibrant visual smorgasbord of laughs, thrills and shocks it yielded: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EkvjV3nZ820 A short clip where Ellen interviews Samuel L. Jackson about his upcoming blockbuster 'Snakes on a Plane'. Listen to Ellen's idea of a 'theme song', and I use that term loosely. XD She's one funny dyke. Likelihood of an accident in your pants rating: 9/10 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dMH0bHeiRNg&feature=Favorites&page=1&t=t&f=b This guy can move. I'm mean shit! I think I'm in love. O_O Likelihood of insane, homicidal bout of jealousy rating: *BANG* *SCREAM* *MANIACAL LAUGH*/10 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nFT-lyFN3BM&feature=Favorites&page=1&t=t&f=b Myspace: The Movie Picture... 'Nuff said. Likelihood of feeling cool regardless of your acne-ridden-horribly-deformed face, third nipple and forth testicle: Too cool to rate/10 More to come... Tomorrow is the sabbath after all! Comment?

Downfall [Saturday June 3rd, 2006 at 9:53am] [ mood | exanimate ] Below is a story I had to write for Professional Writing - Unit 1. Thoughts, comments? Downfall She limped through endless filthy streets, her now-dull hair hanging in a limp shroud around her skeletal form. She had no destination. No purpose. She lived a meaningless existence. Ever since her (betrayal) downfall her body had become nothing but a soulless husk. She was barely even alive. A group of dirty street urchins - thieves, rapists, some even murderers - scowled and taunted her as she approached, shying away like they would a diseased plague victim. Their tiny eyes narrowed in hate as they hurled fervent insults at her passing form. They had no idea their words were pointless. She could no longer hear them. Besides, it wasn’t anything she didn’t already know. Her feet moved of their own accord; mocking devils intent on taunting her with the merciless rain of righteous anger she was constantly afforded. They offered no solace as she was forced to parade through the village, regardless of her mind’s firm protest. In the end it seemed even her own tiny limbs had betrayed her. But, then again, she supposed that was the point. The noxious smell of cheap liquor accosted her senses as a gang of faceless drunks burst forth from a dark alleyway. Her mind told her to run and hide. Her body denied her such a welcome release. She could not run, could not hide. Her warring limbs wanted her to suffer and bleed. Once clad in expensive satin’s and silk’s, her body was now bathed in blood… And for that she would suffer. “Ah, lookit what we ave ere fellas,” rasped the apparent leader of the group, a large ominous form oozing cruelty and ill-will. “If it isn’t the good Princess.” “Good evening, Your Highness,” another of the group jeered, sarcasm dripping from his words. “’Ow’s life on the streets treatin’ ‘er Majesty then?” She refused to reply, grasping to her dignity like a drowning woman would a life preserver. Her pride was all that remained from her past life, the last ancient artefact of a time and place that glimmered like a precious jewel in the recesses of her memory. A time when she had thought restlessness was the ultimate form of sorrow. A time when she had had her happiness stolen from her in one crushing heartbeat. A time when she had believed in everything and known nothing at all. No, she would not answer. Her dignity was her everything... Her only thing. She would not answer. Menace radiated from the men in waves. As far as they were concerned she‘d long since forgone any right to dignity and grace. She was a virus, an insidious disease that had spread through her kingdom and destroyed every righteous virtue the common people had held dear. She had killed the souls of thousands. She was dirt. One man raised a calloused fist to strike her down and the other’s joined suit. Blows rained down in a physical whirlwind of torment that had become her life. This was (divine punishment) what her existence had become. She wasn’t sure how long they bet her… minutes… hours… days. Everything blended together in the throbbing pain that ached through her entire being. Blood pooled at her feet. Too much blood for one person to spill. To much pain to be real. Her body made an attempt to stand… and failed. She heard the leader’s final condemnation, as he spat on her and walked away in disgust. “You be a demon child. Bathed in blood you will be foreva forced to bear the burden of. ’N what you get now’s nothing more than you deserve. You, ‘ore, are the spawn of the devil imself and this pain, this ‘urt is only the beginnin’!” She tried to stand. For once she wanted to stand, needed to stand. The flood-gates were opening as memories, like sharp daggers, pierced through her mind suffocating her with their unwelcome presence. Royalty was not enough, had never been enough. Clad in pure satin gowns that could have fed a whole family, a whole village for a year she was still unsatisfied. She still wanted more. She wanted to have friends, other than her father. She wanted to play games with the common children who always looked so happy, so vibrant. She wanted to be a part of something, anything. But her father, her selfish, stupid father, insisted on imprisoning her. He was afraid that letting her into the outside world. Afraid the she might get her kidnapped or worse. He would not loose his precious only daughter. He would not let her be free. He disgusted her. He was weak and a fool. Royalty in other countries lived much better than they did. Though her father assured her that she was ten times as lucky as the average commoner he still insisted that they both ate and drank nothing more than what their people did. They attended the same churches, gave their own fine medicine to even the most poor of souls and won many battles with the king on the front line as his loyal servants followed fervently behind. He said such things would make them just and righteous leader’s. She thought it was stupid. Commoners sole purpose was to work for their masters. They did not deserve to have equal rights. They did not deserve to be happy. They were slaves. Every day as she sat in her room, her maid’s brushing her long golden hair or altering one of her many fine dresses, she felt herself overcome with anger and jealousy. If she couldn’t play with the children then they had no right to be happy. No right. Every day the jealousy grew. Every day the hate for her father strengthened. Her maid’s and man-servants noticed this. In their fine dresses and lavish bedrooms they had grown a taste for royalty. Like her, they wanted more. With false promises, and empty words they had hatched a plan. On a dark and stormy night, when God’s tears fell from the heaven’s above for that sin about to be committed, she betrayed the one person who had ever loved her. A knife was plunged through his still beating heart, literally and figuratively. As daughter stood before father, his life blood oozing from the gaping wound in his chest, a solitary tear cascaded town his cheek taking with it his life, his soul and his love. Chaos proceeded. The loyal servants, who had promised her the world, threw her from the castle, declaring to the kingdom that she had been the one to end the just king’s life. Without him the people were defenceless, cowering and afraid. She had cursed them all. Now as she lay there, recalling her sins, she prayed to God for sweet release. She prayed for the pain to end. She prayed for death’s freedom. She knew it would never be granted. God had long since abandoned her… Or perhaps she had abandoned him. What they said was entirely correct. For her sin’s, a release would never come. This was her punishment. This was her curse. She was in hell. Comment?

-_- [Saturday June 3rd, 2006 at 9:39am] [ mood | giddy ] I have to finish this stupid script... and I really, really don't want to! *stamps feet* God, why did you have to create homework? Why? WHY IN THE NAME OF ALL THAT IS GOOD? WHY? In other news my ebay auction is going to be over tomorrow. Already one bid for $50 so that's cash in my pocket and cliche $$$ in my eyes. YAY! It's so great having money. So great. I've even made a shopping list in eager participation for my meager sum... And here it is: *Pair of white stockings. *Two pairs of ballet flats (black and other) *Two (or more) bolero jackets/jumpers. *Waist cincher belt. [EDIT]*Wedges. Updated wardrobe here I come! Comment?

Meh... [Tuesday May 30th, 2006 at 9:37am] [ mood | discontent ] Liz can't meet up tonight because she's sick. Decided not to go either. It's bad enough travelling 2 hours to get to school for a class that's bound to last 5 minutes when you've got plans afterward, it's a whole different kettle of fish if you don't. 4 hour commute for 5 minutes... Yeah right A_A; Comment?

Monotone [Thursday May 25th, 2006 at 5:13pm] [ mood | nostalgic ] My life has become a continuous cycle of watching anime, reading (mostly manga) and going out on Japan-themed adventures. ... And I love it! Comment?

Updated anime list [Now with manga!] [Thursday May 25th, 2006 at 4:01pm] [ mood | dorky ] Anime .hack//SIGN - 4/10 Akira - 6/10 Arjuna - 5/10 Blood: The Last Vampire - 7/10 Bubblegum Crisis 2040 - 9 Chobits - 8/10 DragonBall Z - 9/10 DragonBall GT - 3/10 Elfen Lied - 8.5/10 Escaflowne - 9/10 Escaflowne - The Movie - 8/10 Fruits Basket - 8.5/10 GTO (Great teacher Onizuka) - 9/10 Ghost in a Shell - 6.5/10 BEST Grave of the Fireflies - 10/10 Happy Lesson - 4/10 WORST His and Her Circumstances - 3/10 Love Hina - 6/10 Neon Genesis Evangelion - 9/10 Neon Genesis Evangelion: Death and Rebirth - 5/10 Neon Genesis Evangelion: The End of Evangelion - 7/10 Porco Rosso - 6/10 Princess Mononoke - 8.5/10 Rurouni Kenshin - 9/10 Rurouni Kenshin: The Movie - 7.5/10 Rurouni Kenshin: Trust and Betrayal - 10/10 Rurouni Kenshin: Reflection - 9.5/10 Sailor Moon - 9/10 S-Cry-Ed - 7/10 She - The Ultimate Weapon - 6.5/10 Spriggan - 7/10 Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust - 9/10 Voices of a distant star - 8.5/10 Wolf's Rain - 8.5/10 X - 9.5/10 Manga Fruits Basket - 10/10 Wish - 6/10 Comment?

Catch my diesese! [Wednesday May 24th, 2006 at 7:25pm] [ mood | cold ] I got my blood test back today... I have nothing wrong with me... In fact I'm 100% healthy. Doctor Lee even commented that my cholesterol level was 'Superb' and that my diet must be 'fantastic and well-balanced'... A_A; I'm so dissapointed. I've lost my chance at a great conversation starter: Me: I have [insert illness here] Empathetic listener: Oh you poor, poor thing. How do you cope? Me: Oh it's not so bad really. I'm live my life to the full regardless. Every day is a blessing. Empathetic listener: Why you courageous child! Here's some money. MWHAHAHAHAHAHA! What a pity I'm fine. Comment?

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